By Anonymous
It surprises me how easily lying comes to us
After the years
Of living in fear
Because living in shelters isn't something you want everyone to hear
But your lying has reached an all time high
And I don't understand why
You even hate it when I tell our mutual friends of our past
Are you that ashamed of the background from which we came
Of the suffering that caused so much pain
I can't say I understand
Because we both saw it differently
You saw yourself as the oldest
Moms only help
I saw you as a lost sister the one that needed but didn't want the help
I looked up to you
But now as our lives continue to change
I can no longer look up to you
I look at you with shame
Because
I can't go back to those years and help out you and mom
I can't go back and tell you I love you everyday like I should have done
But Instead I look forward and This is what I see
Two lost little girls in teenagers bodies
I can't even began to comprehend what goes through your head
But on the other hand
I understand
See while you look at me in shame
The look I give my mirror image is ten times worse
The dreams I once had I've given up on
Everybody keeps saying we need to prepare for college
But in my head
knowledge
Has been forgotten
Dreams
Have been lost
And Tears
Have been shed
But inside all I feel is hollow
And looking at you just makes it worse
Because I see that disappointment in your eyes
And it makes me feel so lost
It surprises me how easily lying comes to us
After the years
Of living in fear
Because living in shelters isn't something you want everyone to hear
But your lying has reached an all time high
And I don't understand why
You even hate it when I tell our mutual friends of our past
Are you that ashamed of the background from which we came
Of the suffering that caused so much pain
I can't say I understand
Because we both saw it differently
You saw yourself as the oldest
Moms only help
I saw you as a lost sister the one that needed but didn't want the help
I looked up to you
But now as our lives continue to change
I can no longer look up to you
I look at you with shame
Because
I can't go back to those years and help out you and mom
I can't go back and tell you I love you everyday like I should have done
But Instead I look forward and This is what I see
Two lost little girls in teenagers bodies
I can't even began to comprehend what goes through your head
But on the other hand
I understand
See while you look at me in shame
The look I give my mirror image is ten times worse
The dreams I once had I've given up on
Everybody keeps saying we need to prepare for college
But in my head
knowledge
Has been forgotten
Dreams
Have been lost
And Tears
Have been shed
But inside all I feel is hollow
And looking at you just makes it worse
Because I see that disappointment in your eyes
And it makes me feel so lost